I don’t always want to wake up. I can think of many a morning when I was snuggled comfortably in my bed and as the alarm went off, I just wanted to stay right where I was and go back to sleep. Being on a conscious, spiritual path, going back to sleep is rarely an option. I don’t know why exactly I chose to stay awake in this life to the subtle currents of energy that exist in our world, but here I am. I wouldn’t be able to go back to sleep even if I wished it with all my heart. And some days I do.
In order to stay awake, I need to face my unhealthy fears, my tendency to be self-centered and controlling along with a few other choice behaviors that keep me blocked off from love, and find a different way of thinking, behaving, and connecting with the world around me. So easy to write, not so easy to do. This pandemic we’re all in the midst of is forcing us to wake up to things many of us, myself included, don’t want to face. I have to be willing to accept that there are things I want to obtain, experience, own, connect to, that may not be healthy for the planet, our home, and the ecosystem of which we’re a part of.
The word sacrifice is not very popular. Super downer, buzzkill, drag. Very few people want to hear that the party’s over, it’s been over, the lights have been turned on and the band stopped playing 2 decades ago. Some of us are like the party guest that just won’t leave no matter how many hints are dropped. It feels like Mother Nature called security to have us not so politely removed from the building.
What am I being asked to sacrifice? I believe for me, I’m being asked to let go of my wants and stay very focused on what I need. It feels as though Gaia is more than happy to fulfill my needs, but my wants are a different story. I have experienced such joy since all this began because it feels as though we’re being given a rare opportunity to set aside our pain, fear, and suffering in order to answer Mother Earth’s call to serve.
What do you feel is happening below the obvious fear and turmoil?
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Have a beautiful week.